i remember the first few days i started work, i hated it like crazy. every minute of the day, i just wanted to go home. and then it got better. work didn't seem so bad anymore. the people were nicer, and i was starting to do more writing instead of mundane odd jobs. but now...i think im back to square one again. almost. not in the mundane jobs sense but more in the 'i wanna go home' sense. i dread coming to work the night before, and when im at the office i spend every second counting down to the time when i can finally leave and go home/out. i've stopped trying to make small talk with my colleagues, and only say things when i absolutely have to. otherwise, i'd rather be quiet the whole day. making small talk is such a drag. please let these two weeks pass quickly. i think i'm about to go crazy.
i had my first driving lesson last night ! it was super duper fun, i swear. and the instructor was nice too. the only thing is the driving centre's so damn far from my office ! thank god i only have one last lesson to go for after work next week. once i stop work i'll be able to have lessons in the morning. and it'll be a whole lot nearer for me cos i'll be coming from home. yay i can't wait for my next class !
you know how people sometimes have these recurring dreams ? dreams that are pretty much the same but keep cominng back. i've been experiencing it quite abit this year, and it's such a nightmare ! it's really quite horrible. yes i know most people's nightmares revolve around monsters, ghosts, murders and death. but my recurring nightmares revolve around... PACKING ! haha yes you heard right. don't ask me why, i have no idea ! i absolutely abhor packing dreams, they scare the shit out of me. in my dreams i always have a fixed amount of time to pack all of my stuff into suitcases and move out ! e.g. my house is burning down, a bomb's been found in my house, a war is starting and we have to take shelter, my plane leaves in half an hour, etc. (these are real example from my dreams, i'm not making them up) so...in a major state of panic i have to pack all my precious posessions and make sure i don't leave anything i need (or want) out. especially my stuffed toys ! and at the end of the dream, once i'm done packing, i always find that i forgot to take something and i feel really sad, or i run out of time and something bad happens. then i wake up feeling all flustered and panicky and upset ! haha i have no idea why it bothers me so much. maybe cos i dread the feeling of being somewhere and needing something but not having it with me. still ! it's a really weird recurring nightmare to be having. i'm obviously quite a little nutcase.
i've been thinking about what my top ten all-time favourite songs are. and this is what i've come up with so far.
1. train - drops of jupiter
2. american hi-fi - flavour of the week
3. frank sinatra - the way you look tonight
4. aslyn - that's when i love you
5. lifehouse - blind
6. aqualung - strange and beautiful
7. jason wade - you belong to me
8. micheal buble- home
9. merilee rush - angel of the morning
10. damien rice - the blower's daughter