i take back what i said last week. i'm not gonna miss work. I HATE WORK !$&*#^&* two weeks is far too long.

i've decided that after i stop work i shall just fill my days with driving lessons, classes that i wanna take up, going to the gym (i hope) and perhaps a part-time job. i've half given up on the waitressing idea. me, a waitress ? hah who am i kidding.

i'll be going to chicago in april ! i am uber excited. christina aguilera, the pussycat dolls and wicked. could it get any better ? and of course, i can't wait to hit the factory outlet malls and shop till i die. sounds heavenly (:

uni applications are finally done ! like finally. i'm actually pretty worried that my US trip might clash with interviews and stuff. please please don't let them clash.

many times i find myself wondering if i should just let go. forget so that i can move on. maybe ultimately it'll be for the best. cos i really don't know if all this is worth the pain and angst.

i was just thinking, i feel quite hurt whenever she says "we just met last XXX. why are we meeting again so soon". i just don't understand the logic behind it. my friends mean a lot to me and i enjoy spending time with them, so of course i would wanna see them as often as possible. doesn't she want to see us too ? or are we just not important enough that we're only allowed a one-day slot every two or three weeks. i'm not angry about it anymore, but just thinking about it makes me feel really sad. i mean, it gets tiring to put in effort to keep up a friendship when the other person don't even seem to be trying. i find that whenever im the one planning, im not sure about when the rest are planning, she's always the least cooperative. sometimes it makes me so fed up i don't even feel like putting in effort anymore. what bugs me the most is that she doesn't even begin to realise how hurtful her words are. it's as if we mean absolutely nothing to her. and that all her other plans are far more important.

on another subject, i detest being called spoilt because very frankly i don't think i am. i don't just detest it, it makes my blood BOIL. i think you are actually far more spoilt than i am. so who are you to say im one of the most spoilt people you've ever known. i can't stand it when people act like they know me so well when they actually know nothing at all. i'm hardly ever rude to my parents, i don't complain when i have to wait by myself, and i don't make noise when i have to do things on my own. i don't expect anything from anybody and i'm appreciative when people help me. my parents didn't promise me they'll buy me a car when i pass my driving. in fact, they actually promised they would NEVER buy me a car for the rest of my life because they say if i want a car i have to earn the money and buy it myself. my allowance when i was in school was actually quite little. the reason why i have money is because i SAVE my allowance, damn it ! not because my parents give me endless amounts of money. even my possessions..like my ipod. i saved up for a huge portion of it myself. my parents only topped up some of the money as my 18th birthday present. the reason why you always have no money is because you squander it all away the minute you get your allowance ! especially on ridiculously expensive CDs ! so don't you dare call me spoilt. some people just don't understand the difference between living comfortably and being a spoilt person. you don't have to live comfortably to be spoilt. and a person who lives comfortably isn't necessarily spoilt. i'm not claiming to be all high and mighty and not spoilt, i admit that in some ways i am a spoilt kid. but im just saying there are a whole lot of people out there who are far more spoilt than i am. i refuse to be maligned like this. effing irritating.

this is turning into a very angry post. i'd better stop here.

dinner with the dance clique tonight (: i have quite a few photos to upload here but i hardly use the com at home nowadays. soon i guess.