went over to the VE office yesterday. i swear i must have driven desmond crazy after stubbornly refusing to join the company like 1384178201 times despite all his pleading and pestering. plus i was falling asleep during all the product talks and stuff. haha. met wei after that for some shopping and dinner. then we headed over to the coffee shop opposite zouk to meet leo, faiz, gary and keith. drank at phuture for awhile after we went into zouk then cheralynn, jason and some others came too. mambo music last night was not bad. it was really fun at first but after awhile, due to some unforeseen circumstances, i just didn't have the mood to dance anymore. oh well.

today was a really really horrible day. i feel so angry at myself for all the wasted opportunities. and sad because i know those opportunities will never come again. i'm confused. my feelings are all jumbled up and in a mess. where do i go from here ?