nobody understands how much i worried over my applications.
nobody knows how i couldn't sleep thinking about my essays and what to write
i thought about it almost every minute of every day these few weeks
i put in so much effort into thinking and planning and no one even cares
so im last minute and irresponsible and i have bad attitude
it's my own fault for procrastinating
so all my effort counts for nothing ?
you don't even begin to understand how much that hurts.
just because you don't know how much effort i put in doesn't mean i haven't been putting in any.
you claim you wanna be my friend but you don't know the first thing about being a friend.
never mind that you called me childish, cold-blooded, heartless, slutty
but i can't believe you just said what you said.
you knew how much these applications meant to me
and when i needed your support the most you attacked me
i hate you
i hate you
i hate you
i hate you
i hate you
to think i used to want to be your friend too.
so maybe you'll get your selfish wish after all.
i hope you're happy that my dreams are all shattered
i'll just stay in singapore since my application is so screwed up anyway.
but i just want you to know, even if i'm staying it wouldn't matter
cos i never wanna see you again.