dance clique dinner last night. all 8 of us (: haha ate crystal jade xiaolongbao and just sat and talked. it was pretty fun but i guess i was still feeling pretty down so i felt really tired. im still desperately trying to cling on to the mentality that things can only get better. it seems to be proving pretty difficult though.

haha i look like crap here. oh well never mind.


i'm sick again ! like sicker than the past few days. it's so horrible cos i think i've been sick for a month already. i don't get why im just not recovering.

anyway, as snow patrol so aptly puts it,

i need your grace
to remind me to find my own

but what does grace come in the form of ? learning to let go no matter how hard it is ? or learning to cling onto something that you're so unsure of or don't have faith in. i wonder why things always have to be this hard

oh on another note. i just wanted to say that one thing i can't stand is girls who always give in to their boyfriends and let their boyfriends control what they do or what they wear. please..i think it's so pathetic. i'm a strong believer in standing up for your own opinions and fighting for your own happiness. i mean, have a backbone won't you. if your boyfriend doesn't respect you enough to want you to be happy he isn't worth keeping. yes relationships are about compromise. but there's a limit. unless they're so morally wrong i would never give up the things i like for a guy. if a guy ever told me i wasn't allowed to wear sleeveless tops or jeans or come home late or go out with guy friends etc i would tell him to go f himself la seriously. the nerve of him. i'm not anyone's dog(bitch). i know alot of girls think otherwise. but i would never let anyone control or restrict me. that's just the way i am i guess.

oh and
happy 19th birthday, you (: