i'm anti-social and a huge spoilt brat.
but that's just the way i am i guess.
maybe i was just expecting alot more out of tonight.
and the night turned out horrible.
oh well, shit happens i guess.
and maybe communication really does make all the difference in the world.

and i just HATE it when people try to pressure me into doing things that i don't wanna do. if i don't wanna do it, why can't you just let it go ? what's the big deal. people may think im unsporting or whatever but at the end of the day im pretty happy being the stubborn person that i am and sticking to my decisions. is it a crime to not want to take part in smth im not interested in ?

i am so disgruntled and upset that i don't wanna sleep. so i am here although i don't wanna be here. i am grumpy. i am disappointed. i am sad. i am irritated. i am really upset.

i can't remember who (but i strongly suspect it's zaki) often says that effort is all good and well, but if effort doesn't give rise to results, it isn't worth anything. just a random thought don't read too much into it.

somehow or other i always seem to end up as the bad guy. the cold and heartless and unappreciative one. but i don't think that's fair either. in fact i think it's very unfair. and i am tired of playing the bad guy.

i guess im off to bed now to try to sleep my horrible mood off. hopefully when i wake up tmr i'll be feeling much better. not.